We had our monthly pre-natal check-up yesterday and it was a blast! Our baby's head, spinal column, heart, arms and feet were already visible in the ultrasound TV. Doc Juliet said, she's 85% sure our baby is a girl... but she'll have to confirm that next month. Wow! A baby girl... As I've written here, her name shall be ALEEZA ERELAH... ;-)
Our precious Lee... We can't wait to carry her in our arms...
See you soon, Alee--- our very own baby girl. ;)
Yesterday, I got the call I've been waiting for ages. After that call however, instead of feeling relieved and victorious, I found myself face to face with reality... the tough job of decisionmaking. At this point in my life, it is not only my own personal choices and feelings that matter. I also have to consider my husband, our baby, our plans for the future, etc. I guess that this is actually one of the most challenging aspects of being married and being a parent-to-be, huh?... Decisionmaking, back when I was single, was also tough, but it is a whole lot tougher at this time.
Last night, I asked God why can't I have everything that I want and need. Why am I faced with this kind of dilemma? Was that call a blessing or a trial?... What is there that God wants me to prove? Couldn't I have just received that call and decide on what I really wanted for a long time?
I must have made God so sad last night with my questions... After awhile, I realized, I am actually just suffering for some things that I have decided on in the past. There's only one person to blame... and that's me. Only myself.
Hay... I'm kinda hungry already... I will finish this blog later. Meantime, let's have lunch.. ;-)
If there's one thing that is good about all these, it is the lessons that I have learned.
According to this book I read, on the 17th week, Baby weighs five ounces, is roughly the size of an avocado, and has pink transparent skin. The brain, muscles, nervous and circulatory systems, lungs and urinary tract --- are in full swing. The heart is pumping approximately 25 quarts of blood a day.
And since we are moving on our 18th week, let me just share with you the development on this week. The ears have reached their final position, and the eyes are now looking forward. You will feel swift jerks as your little one becomes more active, turning around and kicking often, especially when voices are heard from outside the womb. The baby's skeleton is still soft and pliable, while the brain is growing fast. Listening to music and storytelling are sure ways to boost fetal brain development at this stage.
I wish I could see all these developments with my two eyes. I can't wait for my next visit to the OBGyn's clinic. As to the swift jerks, I think I felt them already... "I think" because I am not really sure if they are movements or just gas/air inside my tummy. ---I've had "kabag" for the last two days... and, this you should know, I eat more these days... maybe that's the reason why I'm having indigestion... The book says, eat small frequent meals instead of heavy ones to ease somehow prevent indigestion... But oh my, that will really take loads of discipline... Food, right now, is the most tempting thing in the entire universe... --- But I think they are movements, because, after all, I'm familiar with the "indigestion gas feeling"... Those bubbly tingly feelings are different... They seemed to have more substance and force... I really don't know how to describe them in the most comprehensive of ways... ;-)
Jin-jin said my face is a little chubby this morning... haha! I guess eating more than my usual serving for five days really had taken its toll on me huh?... Well, that was good news for me, really. I hope my baby is getting all the nutrients that he/she needs.
Boboy always say I'm too lazy these days. That I should be on my feet more often, instead of just lying on our bed on weekends. Hay... I wish it's that easy to be always on your feet when you feel like dozing off to sleep every hour...
Hmm, what else is worth writing down here... ahmmm.... I think that's all for now.
Oh, I'm starting to read (storytelling) for our baby now. Evenings usually. I read the gospel of the day out loud for him/her to hear. ;)
January 12, 2008. On Thursday, our baby will be exactly four months and 7 days. Finally, my tummy is showing off now... and my boobs! Move over Pamela Anderson! hahaha! Just kidding...they are not exactly like Pam's size...but give me five more months.. haha!
I had a good laugh at Boboy's remark last night. He was so surprised to see my tummy. He was in Kidapawan for the last five days and when he saw me and my bulging belly,he couldn't seem to believe that it was only last Tuesday that we last saw each other. He said it was a whole lot smaller then. I told him it's what he gets for always whining about how long he has to wait for the baby to really grow inside me. ;)
I don't know about other women but for me, being pregnant is wonderful (at least at this time)... Well, it's not everyday that you get to be prioritized in all aspect. I get to sit and sleep on the most comfortable of places. Eat lunch earlier than everyone else in the office. Eat what I crave for... the list could go on forever. ;)
I feel so lucky. With a very loving husband, supportive family, friends, and colleagues, and a mighty GOD... what more could I possibly ask for, but for our baby to look like his/her Daddy, to be healthy, normal, and God-fearing.
If we will have a baby girl, her name shall be ALEEZA ERELAH... these are two Hebrew terms... aleeza means joyful and erelah means angel... my brother BORIS gave me those... I don't know if I really got it right...hehehe... If we will have a boy, I told Boboy about naming him Matthew Tyler... but my sister-in-laws told me it's too common... Chi told me that in Singapore, almost all baby boys are named Matthew... and that was when I had second thoughts about it... I particularly like Matthew for two reasons: First, it means God's Gift... and it just suits our baby perfectly.. He is after all, God's Gift to us... Second, I love the character of Matthew Farrell in Judith McNaught's novel, PARADISE... You guys should read it... It's a wonderful, wonderful novel... ;) With Chi's comment though, I had to reconsider... And so I decided it should be NOAH...
NOAH because my prayer is always, that our baby will grow up pleasing not only to our eyes, and hearts but most importantly, in God's sight. And Noah, in the bible was the only person who pleased GOD during his time. I was reminded of that during our prayer meeting last Thursday. Our discussion was based on the Purpose Driven Life's 9th day lesson. It was all about making GOD smile. The topic touched me a lot and my thoughts drifted from our baby to my prayer and to NOAH.
NOAH. NOAH. What a wonderful name.
But I haven't discussed it with Boboy yet.
I will tonight.
I hope he agrees...
